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From: daisy on 9 Jan 2008 08:49 john.orthwein(a)gmail.com wrote: > Is there anyone here who is glad to wake up? I mean, we all do go > through our 24 hour periods of time one way or another, but is anyone > happy that they get to open their eyes for another day of > consciousness? It's been almost three years since my parents passed and I still have my crying times...in fact just a few hours ago, it passes quickly thank goodness. Glad to meet you even if the circumstances aren't good... Daisy
From: Jo in Ok on 10 Jan 2008 10:04 On Jan 9, 3:44 am, john.orthw...(a)gmail.com wrote: > Is there anyone here who is glad to wake up? I mean, we all do go > through our 24 hour periods of time one way or another, but is anyone > happy that they get to open their eyes for another day of > consciousness? When one is feeling pain from missing someone they knew/loved dies, it can feel very hard to be able to enjoy another day without them here, like why were we allow to keep exisitng and they didn't(least on earth in our human forms)....I have question God alot ...not always getting answers so I rely on the bible and what others tell me...my faith in seeing my loves ones,ect for ALL eternity to NEVER be separated AGAIN....gives me hope and peace of mind...just have to deal with the anger part of being apart but trying not to question God's decisions or the way He does stuff or "allows" things to happen... ...I do try to thank my Creator for each day now that I get to live while here on earth...there are so many things I can do(but being lazy/retired-get kinda lazy ; ) but each day here I get to see my dh and son,ect and dogs and feel comforted being home or doing what I like when I like.....there are so many stages of grief we go through- no matter the time, can be repeated off and on...but to know others care about me and my pain and thoughts,experiences-doesn't make me feel alone...(((hugs))) to all hurting here!...Jo...Wally's mom
From: orcouldbe on 12 Jan 2008 01:32 On Jan 9, 4:44 am, john.orthw...(a)gmail.com wrote: > Is there anyone here who is glad to wake up? Glad? Suppose so. Some mornings I feel like "Oh good, I get to do this...." There are days, though, when I'd rather cover my head and make the world go away. Haven't got the consistency thing down - yet. Mack
From: donna on 15 Jan 2008 10:25 dear jayne, no, i can't say that i am happy each day when i wake up and realize that i've been given another day. don't get me wrong ... it's such a strange situation. i love my family with every cell in my body and now, after almost two years, i can even smile and laugh with them at times. i feel immense satisfaction when i take care of my pets and see the little bassett hound we rescued from torture wag her tail at the happiness of seeing me. i have pride in my garden when family and friends tell me i live in a beautiful park. i'm thankful that i can financially and physically pay bills and attend to all the small details of everyday living. but happy? nope. there have been so many posts here over the last two years that apply to me and help explain my feelings. liliana wrote that she tried so hard to put magic into the lives of her children when they were small. i think the magic left when my daughter died. someone else (daisy?) wrote that their therapist spoke of a 'new normal' at some point in life. there was a beautiful quote by kubler-ross, speaking of new life emerging, without forgetting the destruction of the past. i just miss her so much. best, donna
From: Genie on 16 Jan 2008 08:48
On Jan 12, 1:32 am, orcoul...(a)yahoo.com wrote: > On Jan 9, 4:44 am, john.orthw...(a)gmail.com wrote: > > > Is there anyone here who is glad to wake up? > > Glad? Suppose so. Some mornings I feel like "Oh good, I get to do > this...." There are days, though, when I'd rather cover my head and > make the world go away. Haven't got the consistency thing down - yet. > > Mack Yes. To me this question has a double edge. Since we didn't know if I was going to wake up having Leukemia ( and still don't because "remission" has no guarantees) less than a year before our only daughter died, I have to wake up grateful for every breath I breathe. A very close friend, who also lost a young adult son, gave me a journal of thanks for Christmas. We are both keeping daily accounts of why we are grateful and happy to be alive. On the other hand, if the Leukemia returns, I'll be ready to go to be with my daughter. I miss her so, and that will never change. Genie |