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From: This Is Ab0ut on 6 Dec 2007 08:45
I lost my 43 year old son through suicide back in October 2005. He hung
himself. Reason for this was because he knew this man that killed his
own wife & son back in the middle 90's. My son use to babysit for this
man & his wife. One day this man made his wife believe they're going on
a second honeymoon. Exact same place they went before. At least that's
what I think he told her. When they got to that motel he told his wife
he was going to kill their son with a hammer. She freaked out & said no.
To calm her down he made her believe he won't do it & let her see him
throw the hammer away. When his wife & son went to sleep he killed them
both. After that he called the police on him self. He's doing time in
prison in New Hampshire. He decided to tell the authorities about this
old woman he killed before his wife & son that lived in the same
building he lived in. Oct. 12 at night time homicide detectives from a
city we lived in before came to our home to talk to my son about this
guy that killed his wife & son. My son had know knowledge about this
other woman. My son volunteered to go to their police department the
next morning which would be Oct.13 2005. The next thing he knows he's
being questioned about that murder. Now my son had a stuttering problem
& had very low esteem about himself. He knew he didn't''t do it.
Everyone whether they liked my son or not knew he couldn't hurt or kill
anyone. He took a DNA test & also a lie detector test. He volunteered to
do it He was nervous & according to the police department he failed. He
kept going back to the police department to try to convince them he was
innocent. They told him they were going to that prison to talk to this
man & show him a picture of my son & see what he has to say. My son
wasn't married & had very few friends & him & this man that killed his
own wife & son had an argument about something so my son knew he was at
the mercy of this man. Buy the time Oct 15th came around at night time
my son had it in his mine that he was going to prison for something he
didn't do. He was scared. Last time I seen him alive was Saturday 11:40
p.m Oct 15, 2005. I found a goodbye suicide letter he left behind
actually more then one. You couldn't read it that good because when he
wrote it he was shaking. For those last few days before his suicide all
my son did was cry & throw up. I went to our police department on Sunday
with that suicide letter & told them what happened. Monday a cop comes
to my apartment to get info about my son. I also called the city that
started all this & asked them what was going on about my son. You know
what they told me? They said "Oh he's cleared" They were going by the
word of a self admitting convicted killer. I then asked them to put a
look out thing to find my son. I knew he was outside some place he had
no where to go. My other sons & myself look every where to find my son.
Oct 20th, 2005 around noon time the detectives where we live came to my
apartment to tell me they found my son & that he killed himself they
also told me later on that it won't be in the paper about his suicide.
They gave a stupid reason for it. So no one really didn't know what
happened. Oh I told people I knew what went on. Every day I think of
what happened & it hurts but nothing can be done about this. I know I
have to go on I'm not suicidal my self to chicken to even think that
way. My son who did kill himself? Yes his life sucked & alot of times he
said he wished he was dead but there's a difference in taking your own
life because you want to then doing it because you think your life has
ended any way because of something you not only didn't do but had no
knowledge of until those homicide detectives came knocking on our door

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