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From: highanxiety on 5 Aug 2008 18:24 I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very upsetting. I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just being completely helpless to do much at all. I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a whole month - I've been through hell guys. Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do without such supportive wonderful people like you all. Love, Sally -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Chip on 5 Aug 2008 19:08 "highanxiety" <highanxiety2006(a)gmail.com> wrote in message news:0769d0b9-c797-48ba-819c-f4546bcac5c4(a)s50g2000hsb.googlegroups.com... >I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > upsetting. > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. > > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > being completely helpless to do much at all. > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > whole month - I've been through hell guys. > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. > > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. Sally, check out the below description of acute stress disorder: http://www.merck.com/mmhe/sec07/ch100/ch100h.html Treatment Many people recover from acute stress disorder once they are removed from the traumatic situation and given appropriate support in the form of understanding, empathy for their distress, and an opportunity to describe what happened and their reaction to it. Some people benefit from describing their experience several times. ----------------------- Instead of pushing back the memories, talk about them, either here on asap-m or with someone in person. Don't take on more memories than you can handle, or are relatively comfortable with. You've been thru alot, and I'm glad you're back here on asapm. ((((Sally))))) Chip -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Philip Peters on 5 Aug 2008 19:25 highanxiety schreef: > I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. And that is *great news*! > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > upsetting. I can imagine..... it was a very traumatic experience. > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. It is very normal, believe me. It's quite an ordeal you went through, Sally, not something even normies would manage totally unscathed. I don't see what's wrong with looking for sympathy and support in a group that was set up for that. I think it's a *cognitive distortion* to believe sympathy and support will make you feel worse. There seems to be an irrational belief behind it, like "I am not worthy of sympathy (support, friendship, love, you name it)". > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > being completely helpless to do much at all. Sally this is *my worst nightmare*, literally. And you expect yourself to move on and walk away whistling into the sunset? > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > whole month - I've been through hell guys. Yes, I realize that and I realzed that when it ws happening, so did all of us, I guess. > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. Indeed. Maybe Young Medicine Master Margrove might turn up and advise you as to whether it would be a good idea to seek some temporary professional help for PTSD (if not you might want to email him). In any case, don't be too hard on yourself. It's *Sally Time*! > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. You're doing so many things already, having the occasional flashback may be part of recovery, as you say yourselfm, you're *on the mend*! > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. The feeling is mutual. It's not because you're such an unpleasant person that people wish to support you! You;re a wonderful human being and I for one am happy and proud to call you my friend. ((((((Sally)))))) Philip -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Mare on 5 Aug 2008 19:32 On Aug 5, 6:24 pm, highanxiety <highanxiety2...(a)gmail.com> wrote: > I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > upsetting. > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. > > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > being completely helpless to do much at all. > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > whole month - I've been through hell guys. > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. > > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. > > Sally, I'm a newbie here, but I can relate in a slightly different way. Since I've been blessed with pretty good health, my fretting usually comes about if I start thinking about the cat I had put down. She had pancreatitis and she was the first critter I ever had to make the decision about putting down. There are times when I relive what that poor little thing went through and I make myself sick about it. That was 8 years ago. Then 3 years ago, my pride & joy (Siamese), Mookie, went to Rainbow Bridge with the vet's help (he had numerous tumors in his lungs) and it's like I've never really recovered from either of their deaths. Kirby was only 5, but I was lucky to have been owned by Mookie for 16 years. The memories are still fresh, and I can't seem to get rid of them either. I'm hoping that you will be able to put the bad stuff aside and concentrate on how well you're doing now. I will if you will, okay? In the meantime, (((((((Sally))))))) Best, Mare -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: kilikini on 5 Aug 2008 20:02 highanxiety wrote: > I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > upsetting. > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. > > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > being completely helpless to do much at all. > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > whole month - I've been through hell guys. > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. > > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. > > Love, > > Sally In my opinion, it's perfectly justified to feel the way you do, Sally. I question why I've been battling cancer for 2 1/2 years, you know? How did I get so "lucky" to have this thing in me? Why did I have to get fileted? I still have nightmares about the surgeries and the pain. So, if I'm going through that trauma, I don't see why it isn't a typical response. Ease up on yourself, sweetie. You've been through a lot. kili -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
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