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From: Worn Out Retread on 8 Aug 2008 09:26 "Simon" <SimonFromLondon(a)googlemail.com> wrote in message news:5ain94ten8mmmpvq3a3j062pelvas0vsng(a)4ax.com... > On Thu, 7 Aug 2008 09:35:31 -0500, "Worn Out Retread" > <newdoverman(a)yahoo.ca> wrote: > >>>> >>>>I had this "flash-back" effect for several years after leaving my job >>>>(forced out on medical grounds). I would wake up in the middle of the >>>>night >>>>in a cold sweat and total panic until I realized that I was no longer in >>>>that situation. >>>> >>> Bloody hell! I have very vivid flash backs of my old job. Some to >>> do with "clocking in and out". That industrial dispute lasted a >>> week but it is seared into my memory. The other is a non memory but >>> my nightmares are when all "my" (all 44 of them) computers all fail. >>> It never happened but 12 years on I still wake up in a cold sweat >>> about it. >>> >>> I was also retired on medical grounds. >>> >>> Simon >> >>Some thing just can't be forgiven and forgotten no matter how hard you >>try. >>I wish that part of the brain could be removed. >> >>(((((((((((Simon))))))))))) > > Ron, > > I forgive easily the people who threw the axe at me. They were next > for the chop. Maybe they realised that or maybe they did not. > Whatever, lots of people went by hook or by crook. I just put my > claws in :-) I was looking after myself. The best able just jumped > ship into calmer (and better paid) waters. > > I will never forget that year though. My battle to save my job > (which failed as it was bound to do) and my battle with PD which was > new to me at the same time will never be forgotten. > > At least they have to pay me a pension for the rest of my life so I > plan to live a very long time. If I get it right on my deathbed at > age 99 I will marry a 19 year old beauty. Then my pension would > pass to her and I would have a very broad grin on my face for two > reasons ;-) > > Simon Now, there's a plan that I must remember!! Thanks for the idea. -- Ron P If we are what we eat then: I'm fast, cheap and easy and past my best before date -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Mary on 8 Aug 2008 17:29 "Simon" <SimonFromLondon(a)googlemail.com> wrote in message news:qcmn9414jmn3p4ekcjohhiio7cnsa0e7ka(a)4ax.com... > On Thu, 7 Aug 2008 23:39:44 -0500, "Mary" <non(a)invalid.ddd> wrote: > > >"Simon" <SimonFromLondon(a)googlemail.com> wrote in message > >news:aknl94pol7fjfduj2jbqtc3rpbv6rf1lkk(a)4ax.com... > >> On Wed, 6 Aug 2008 22:11:37 -0500, "Mary" <non(a)invalid.ddd> wrote: > >> > >> {...] > >> > >> >> Bloody hell! I have very vivid flash backs of my old job. Some to > >> >> do with "clocking in and out". That industrial dispute lasted a > >> >> week but it is seared into my memory. The other is a non memory but > >> >> my nightmares are when all "my" (all 44 of them) computers all fail. > >> >> It never happened but 12 years on I still wake up in a cold sweat > >> >> about it. > >> > > >> >You don't have 44 computers do you? > >> > > >> No *I* never had 44 computers of my own. They were what my employer > >> called "mission critical" and belonged to them. I was responsible > >> for them and on call for a few others. I also had some computers > >> which I hid from my employer because the were not in the "plan". > >> The hidden computers did the real work! > > > >I won't even ask about hidden computers >) - 44 computers are a lot of > >computers. > > > The hidden computers were simply the ones that did not use an OS > provided by Mr Bill. They were lost in the mass of other computers > and renamed to hide their true identity on the network. The only > problem was accounting for new parts. I used a bit of creativity. Yes, it sounds like you were good at your job. Too bad things went as they did for you. :( > >> >> I was also retired on medical grounds. > >> > > >> >But you are still young aren't you? > >> > > >> I like to think that I am still young and I was much younger then. > > > >You are still young as far as I remember. > > > OK, I am 47 with receding hair. Well, 47 is youngish. I wouldn't mind being 47. > >> "Medical retirement" from a government job in the UK can be a > >> convenient way of getting employer/employee to part company in an > >> almost civilised manner when the relationship has broken down. Only > >> almost civilised <g>. They could have accommodated my panic attacks > >> which is all that I asked for but instead they used them as a reason > >> to be rid of me. In the end after about a year of bartering the > >> money offer was too good to turn down. I still smile when I see the > >> pay cheque from them each month. Yes I did get a good deal :-) > > > >Well, at least you got something good out of it. You have another job > >though, don't you? > > No, I have never had a permanent job since. I do a bit of voluntary > stuff but that is it. Frankly I don't need paid work so there is > not the incentive. I am not saying that I am rich, I am not, but I > can pay my way each month. But good to at least do volunteer work even if you don't need the money. It helps validate you and keeps your self esteem up.. > >I doubt the Canadian govt. would give you a medical > >retirement and give you a money offer though I don't know anybody personally > >who had panic attacks and got a medical retirement. > > I was having the start of my panic attacks at the time but the > reason for my medical retirement is confidential even from me. It > may have had nothing to do with panic attacks. Not that I was > complaining. By that stage we had agreed that medical retirement > was the way I would leave. The government files will be open for > inspection in 2091 if you can wait that long :-) Hmmm.. I think I will be gone by then > :) Mary -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Gloria Wolfe on 9 Aug 2008 01:01 Nor would I do well on a trach tube, Mary. I wear hearing aids and a partial in my mouth, and there are times when even they about drive me nuts. When I'm at home alone I don't put any of them in. Nanny On 8/6/2008 10:11 PM, non(a)invalid.ddd wrote to All: -> "Simon" <SimonFromLondon(a)googlemail.com> wrote in message -> news:rhik94hmps89msmthu9q3km3a8g79ljs09(a)4ax.com... -> > On Tue, 5 Aug 2008 17:24:55 -0500, highanxiety -> > <highanxiety2006(a)gmail.com> wrote: -> > -> > >I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd -> > >bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. -> > > -> > >My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came -> > >back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. -> > > -> > >But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I -> > >start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the -> > >worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very -> > >upsetting. -> > > -> > >I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and -> > >actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if -> > >this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. -> > > -> > >I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding -> > >tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back -> > >in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks -> > >of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just -> > >being completely helpless to do much at all. -> > > -> > >I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I -> > >think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and -> > >friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a -> > >whole month - I've been through hell guys. -> > > -> > >Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a -> > >normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside -> > >and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself -> > >too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would -> > >be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. -> > > -> > >Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it -> > >had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today -> > >and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope -> > >that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops -> > >into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. -> > > -> > >Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do -> > >without such supportive wonderful people like you all. -> > > -> > >Love, -> > > -> > >Sally -> > -> > I don't know what to say. My father pulled out two nasal/gastic -> > tubes because they were uncomfortable. Some time later he pulled -> > out a PEG :-( I think he is trying to tell me something. Sadly -> > something I can do nothing about. -> -> My brother fell on back of his head 1.5 years ago and is in a chronic care -> hospital now. He's in his 60's. He had a brain injury 25 years ago, and when -> this new head injury happened it made things worse. He can't walk now and is -> not likely to, and in a wheelchair. He has stomach tube. But it was a trach -> tube he really disliked. He pulled it out a few times.The doctors put it -> back in, but the last time, the doctor said to leave it out because it -> annoyed my brother so much and he thought my brother could breathe ok on his -> own. My brother was happy to get rid of it. I would hate to have those -> things. -> I would not do well at all. -> -> Mary -> -> -- -> ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== -> Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com -> The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm -> ========= This notice is added to each approved article ========== -> -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Mary on 12 Aug 2008 21:55 "Simon" <SimonFromLondon(a)googlemail.com> wrote in message news:7uu3a411alcans3qr9td93pqoltapa93rt(a)4ax.com... > [...] > >> I was having the start of my panic attacks at the time but the > >> reason for my medical retirement is confidential even from me. It > >> may have had nothing to do with panic attacks. Not that I was > >> complaining. By that stage we had agreed that medical retirement > >> was the way I would leave. The government files will be open for > >> inspection in 2091 if you can wait that long :-) > > > >Hmmm.. I think I will be gone by then > :) > > > They know that I will be gone by then and probably any children I > may have as well. The 130 year rule was instituted when that was > the expectation. The idea is that the documents are secret from me > and my children. We called it the 100 (years) plus 30 (years). You > only got the plus 30 if there was something that could be > embarrassing to the children (or maybe the government?). > > I expect that by now any documents have been "lost". You could be right. :>) Mary -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
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