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From: kilikini on 6 Aug 2008 10:55 highanxiety wrote: > On Aug 5, 8:02 pm, "kilikini" <kiliki...(a)NOSPAMhotmail.com> wrote: >> highanxiety wrote: >>> I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought >>> I'd bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. >> >>> My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came >>> back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. >> >>> But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital >>> and I start to think about what *could* have happened as well as >>> some of the worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. >>> It's very upsetting. >> >>> I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and >>> actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder >>> if this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this >>> before. >> >>> I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding >>> tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it >>> back in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my >>> stomach. Weeks of being unable to talk and having to write notes >>> and gesture. Just being completely helpless to do much at all. >> >>> I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I >>> think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and >>> friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a >>> whole month - I've been through hell guys. >> >>> Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a >>> normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside >>> and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for >>> myself too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but >>> it would be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that >>> embolism. >> >>> Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it >>> had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on >>> today and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. >>> I hope that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new >>> memory pops into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. >> >>> Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do >>> without such supportive wonderful people like you all. >> >>> Love, >> >>> Sally >> >> In my opinion, it's perfectly justified to feel the way you do, >> Sally. I question why I've been battling cancer for 2 1/2 years, >> you know? How did I get so "lucky" to have this thing in me? Why >> did I have to get fileted? I still have nightmares about the >> surgeries and the pain. So, if I'm going through that trauma, I >> don't see why it isn't a typical response. >> >> Ease up on yourself, sweetie. You've been through a lot. >> >> kili >> > > Kili, > > If anyone would know about this kind of problem, it would be you. You > are right. I guess it's a normal response to trauma and I hope both of > us can get through it. I'm sorry about the nightmares. I haven't had > those yet and hope that I don't. My problems happen when I'm awake and > thinking. Don't you just hate hospitals? I hope I never see the inside > of another one, I think I've filled my quota, at least for awhile. I'm > not the only one who's been through a lot. You are an inspiration to > me and we all hold our breath when you fall silent. I'm glad you're > back posting with us dear Kili. > > Love, > > Sally Sally, if I never see the inside of a doctor's office again it wouldn't be too soon. I dread it when I see a Dr.'s number on my caller I.D. I start to shake immediately. We'll both get through this and if you ever need to talk, just jot me an e-mail. kili -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Worn Out Retread on 6 Aug 2008 11:31 "highanxiety" <highanxiety2006(a)gmail.com> wrote in message news:0769d0b9-c797-48ba-819c-f4546bcac5c4(a)s50g2000hsb.googlegroups.com... > I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > upsetting. > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. > > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > being completely helpless to do much at all. > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > whole month - I've been through hell guys. > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. > > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. > > Love, > > Sally I had this "flash-back" effect for several years after leaving my job (forced out on medical grounds). I would wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat and total panic until I realized that I was no longer in that situation. This lasted for quite a few years and my doctor was quite a good help with this. Good luck. This isn't fun stuff to go through. In my opinion this is something like PTSD. -- Ron P If we are what we eat then: I'm fast, cheap and easy and past my best before date -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Mary on 6 Aug 2008 12:10 "highanxiety" <highanxiety2006(a)gmail.com> wrote in message news:0769d0b9-c797-48ba-819c-f4546bcac5c4(a)s50g2000hsb.googlegroups.com... > I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > upsetting. > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. > > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > being completely helpless to do much at all. > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > whole month - I've been through hell guys. > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. > > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. Hi Sally, people here have given you very good advice so I will just add that I am glad you are doing better and climbing stairs and even driving :) I think its natural for anyone to be upset if they think about what happened during and after a serious illness - its just the degree in people which is different. I think when under stress you need all your mental and physical strength to cope, but when some of the stress comes off like now, there is more time to think about what happened. After heart surgery 13 years ago now, I didn't think about it much right during or right after, but when I got home, it upset me to feel weak and not being able to do things I wanted to do. I was frustrated and depressed because I couldn't -(completely unrealistic of course but I had no patience with myself), but I didn't think that at the time. Gradually my strength returned as yours will. My experience and feelings were not all the same as yours, but the principle is the same. You've been through a serious illness, but you are doing well in your recovery. It won't make things worse by getting sympathy. You probably need it and support right now. Things are already getting better for you though you may not see it yet. Just my thoughts. Mary -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Mary on 6 Aug 2008 13:05 "Worn Out Retread" <newdoverman(a)yahoo.ca> wrote in message news:g7cg4t$rrl$2(a)news.datemas.de... > "highanxiety" <highanxiety2006(a)gmail.com> wrote in message > news:0769d0b9-c797-48ba-819c-f4546bcac5c4(a)s50g2000hsb.googlegroups.com... > > I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. > > > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > > upsetting. > > > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. > > > > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > > being completely helpless to do much at all. > > > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > > whole month - I've been through hell guys. > > > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. > > > > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. > > > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. > > > > Love, > > > > Sally > > I had this "flash-back" effect for several years after leaving my job > (forced out on medical grounds). I would wake up in the middle of the night > in a cold sweat and total panic until I realized that I was no longer in > that situation. That happened to my son in law too, though he was laid off after 20 years at the same company. That was 3 years ago. He's in his 40's so had to take a job that was below his potential because they needed the money. He is still at that same job but totally frustrated. Its hard to get jobs here. It might be a big city, but that doesn't mean you can get the kind of work you want or were in before if you got laid off. Even when you are just in your 40's it gets harder. I feel sorry for him. He was very upset and still is. He went to a doctor at first but him and my daughter don't go to doctors as often as they should. > This lasted for quite a few years and my doctor was quite a good help with > this. > > Good luck. This isn't fun stuff to go through. > > In my opinion this is something like PTSD. It is something like that, but for me at least, in my own experience, I found that illness even serious, was not nearly as bad as other experiences that happened to me in my life. They can still haunt me 25 years later, though they are not as strong. Also to consider is peoples' coping abilities. Mine are good if my emotions are not involved, but once they get involved, depending on how I view the situation, I do not cope well about certain things.We all view things differently. We are all the same, yet so different. :>) Mary -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ==========
From: Diana on 6 Aug 2008 16:23
Dear Sally; I take you in my arms and hold you. Love Diana "highanxiety" <highanxiety2006(a)gmail.com> schreef in bericht news:0769d0b9-c797-48ba-819c-f4546bcac5c4(a)s50g2000hsb.googlegroups.com... >I didn't remember this ever being discussed in here, so I thought I'd > bounce it off you all and see what you have to say. > > My health is on the mend. I saw my doctor and all my blood work came > back good and I'm getting stronger. The worst seems to be behind me. > > But I have flashbacks to when I was very ill and in the hospital and I > start to think about what *could* have happened as well as some of the > worst parts when I was sick, and I get very scared. It's very > upsetting. > > I feel like I'm looking for sympathy just posting about it and > actually that might even make it worse if I get that. I just wonder if > this is normal and if anyone else has ever been through this before. > > I had bad times. I got pneumonia and had a hard time with my feeding > tube. It became dislodged and they had to take it out and put it back > in - twice. Which mean a tube shoved down my nose to my stomach. Weeks > of being unable to talk and having to write notes and gesture. Just > being completely helpless to do much at all. > > I have pushed back a lot of those memories but they come back and I > think about them and it was a scary thing. I know my family and > friends were scared too, and just the idea that I was in ICU for a > whole month - I've been through hell guys. > > Has anyone had this after a bad accident or illness and is this a > normal reaction? I suppose it is. I wish I could just brush it aside > and get on with my recovery but I find myself feeling sorry for myself > too much. I may have a tendency to over dramatize things but it would > be hard to OVER dramatize what I've been through with that embolism. > > Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated. I just wish none of it > had ever happened. I try to be positive and just concentrate on today > and the fact I'm home, I'm climbing stairs, I'm even driving. I hope > that this phase for me doesn't last. I hate it when a new memory pops > into my mind and I have to relive the bad stuff. > > Thanks for listening. You all are the best. I don't know what I'd do > without such supportive wonderful people like you all. > > Love, > > Sally > > -- > ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== > Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com > The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm > ========= This notice is added to each approved article ========== > -- ========== Please DELETE this text block when replying! ========== Contact the moderators at: asapm-board(a)stump.algebra.com The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm ========= This notice is added to each approved article ========== |