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From: Cindy's Mom on 7 Jan 2008 16:44
On Jan 6, 10:58 pm, Leonard O <lco@{REMOVESPAM}lightspeed.net> wrote:
> I never thought I would find myself in this situation.
>
> My wife of 28 years, Susan died at home on December 16, after a terrible year.
>
> Everytime my thoughts wander my eyes fill with uncontrollable tears,
> they are there right now. The first time I left the house to go to the
> supermarket was a surreal experience. I walked around that store in a
> daze not knowing what I was even supposed to buy myself.
> Once I was able to maintain some degree control I just couldn't stay at
> home any longer and went back to work after Christmas.
> Most people I have regular contact with have been very kind, but when
> they gave me a well meaning condolences card I couldn't bring myself to
> read it.
> I have some long distance friends and family who I talk to regularly,
> and that is helping to bring me back to myself. I know all of this is
> going to take some time to deal with. I present most people with my
> "thanks I'm doing fine" response, but deep down I have this sense of
> total dispair.
>
> I am wiping away tears as I type this. My eyes hurt and I seem to have
> a constant tightness around my mouth that won't go away. If any of you
> have any suggestions I will value them.
>
> Thanks
>
> Leonard
>
> Two pics of Sue in Happier times;http://homepage.mac.com/lco/filechute/Sue_Aci.jpghttp://homepage.mac.com/lco/filechute/Sue_Fci.jpg

Leonard, I am so sorry for your loss. I know it is devestating for
you..so many wonderful memories shared over the years. Thank you for
posting the pcitures, your wife was a beautiful woman and had a
pleasant manner about her smile and eyes. The journey of grief is such
an awful trip and sadly one each of us who posts on this board takes
alone, but it does help to have others who are suffering from missing
loved ones in their life to "talk" to. Hugs to you and keep posting
your thoughts because it does help to share what you are feeling. I am
thinkig of you..Judy, Cindy's Mom.
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